Lefty said:

....Maybe you too will realize another romantic interest or maybe you can develop a stronger relationship with your boyfriend that won't be upset by crises.

Relationships can be risky, and sometimes it's worth the risk.  It's obvious that you still love him, and I believe he still has strong feelings for you, but like Lefty says, he's confused.  Wait a while until your emotions settle down, and you can think clearly. Sleeping with him is NOT a good idea.  It will only mix things up more.  I've been in your exact situation, so trust me when I say that it will get easier as time goes by.  After a couple of months, if you both still feel the need to be together, try going to therapy to overcome the obstacles that separate you.  It's amazing what just one session can do, really. If you two are meant to be together, then things will work out.  If not, then you'll realize this in time, and you can move on.  The situation you're in now isn't healthy... step one: get healthy!  Be single for a while and get a feel for independence.  Make a decision about your ex ONLY when you're calm, and can think rationally about the whole thing.  Fate doesn't make mistakes.  Try to think that you're going through this for a reason.  This is a test to see how much your love can withstand. Brenna