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Dear
Panel,
I
am going to sum up the story, or I'll be writing for centuries.
It
Started As a Crush
I
always saw this kid Nick in school, he was in my friend's class.
I would always stay in her class just to see him. Everyday walking
home from school he and his girlfriend would walk home holding
hands. I realized he had a girlfriend, so I won't even bother
with him, there would be no point in it. This was in September.
January
came and I decided to ask his friend Brian if Nick had a girlfriend
(I was wondering if they were still together). His friend said,
"Yes, he does."
We
Start Talking
Okay,
the next day Nick is looking at me constantly, all of sudden he
acknowledges my appearance. I then realize Brian must have told
him I asked if he had a girlfriend, which showed I obviously was
interested in Nick. He starts to talk to me, day by day I talk
to him more.
His
friend tells me that he likes me. He then asks me if we could
talk on the phone, so he gives me his number, I give him mine.
We start to talk on the phone for hours a day. We once talked
from 11:00 at night to 6:00 in the morning. He tells me how much
he likes me, never mentioning he and his girlfriend.
We
Start Hanging Out
We
hang out for the first time. He comes to my house while my friend
is over. She leaves and we stay in the park at night. It was real
cold so he held me in his arms as we sat on the bench with no
one else there. He took my hand and held it in his.
We
went back to my building and it seemed like he didn't want to
leave. He held my hands playing with them in his. It looked as
if he wanted to kiss me but in my mind was that he had a girlfriend,
obviously it wasn't in his.
So
we still continue to talk on the phone for hours, he tells me
stuff about his personal life, and he has a great personality.
He's sweet, romantic and funny.
February
comes now, one day he walks me home after school. We are in my
room sitting on my bed and he takes my hand, starts touching my
face and then he goes to kiss me. I kiss him back...we do nothing
else but kiss for 4 hours.
I
Write a letter--He Never Responds
I
realize I want to be with him, but he still is going out with
that girl. He never mentions her, and when I do he tries to change
the subject. Finally I decided to write him a letter, telling
him how I feel, and I want to know what he wants to happen. I
basically let him know, he has to choose her or me. I wrote that
what he is doing is wrong and I'm going to wind up getting hurt
cause I don't want to build my feelings up for someone who is
still going to be dating someone else.
Okay
well, he totally never brought the letter up after I gave it to
him.
After
that I did the stupidest thing and hung out with him again. We
kissed all night in my room. I didn't mention anything, neither
did he. I was real stupid for not bringing the situation up, but
I'm not a strong person, and he makes me feel like I'm in another
world, so I didn't want to ruin the whole moment.
Now
it is March, our relationship is building, we are getting much
closer. We talk on the phone about things he wouldn't tell just
anybody. I call him one day to tell him how I finally feel. This
time he opened up, even though it didn't get us anywhere really.
We
Finally Discuss His Girlfriend
He
told me that he likes the girl he is going out with and he likes
me. He said it isn't easy for him either and he is extremely confused.
He doesn't know what to do because he never was or thought he'd
be in this position.
He
said I do have him, I have his heart. I didn't understand that
to an extent. He says he's been with this girl for a year or more
and he never stayed with a girl longer. He always says how he
doesn't want to be alone, or lonely.
I
then asked if he was planning to break up with her now, he said
he will have to get back to me on his answer...I still continued
talking to him and I hung out with him again after that, we kissed
and he acted real sweet to me, which makes me not mad at him anymore.
He is with me one moment kissing me, then the next hugging his
girlfriend. It has been over 2 months, I've been talking to him
and I haven't got anywhere.
I
Don't Want to Give Him an Ultimatum
I
don't want to give him an ultimatum because I'm afraid he might
stay with her since he does know her for a much longer amount
of time. I like him a lot now as a person. He is really nice and
sweet and everything I always wanted, the only problem is-he is
still with her. I think he doesn't want to break up with her cause
he knows she likes him and will stay with him. I think he has
this obsession where he has to be with someone, he doesn't want
to be alone, and he don't know if I'd stay with him for long as
with her he knows she will.
This
is one of my thoughts, I'm still not sure of anything though.
I don't know how he could be with me and then be with her with
no problem or guilt. I don't know what I should do. I'm too confused
to think. I don't know if he ever plans on breaking up with her.
My
Question:
If
he doesn't plan on breaking up with her, why is he bothering with
me?
The
Other Girl
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