Dear Panel,

I am a not good looking fifteen year old girl and I'm Belgian. I'm very athletic and I have blond hair and blue eyes.

He is a 49 year old Italian in the military and is married with two children.

Our Relationship is a Secret

Nobody knows about us, and I'm not supposed to tell anybody about us.

I don't now were I should start. I'm in love with him very much. We have done some things with each other at his house in the sexual way. I may not tell anybody about it, not even my best friend, which is very difficult for me.

I see him 2-3 times a week at the sportsclub where we talk to each other. I can look at him and I can touch him but that is difficult. Every time he says that I may never tell anybody about it because he is married and he has a high reputation.

It's Purely Physical

I have always thought that he's never felt anything for me. He wanted to wait until I was sixteen but we already had sex. I thought that it may stop there.

Last week he asked me again if I wanted to have sex. I want to do it but I don't want to do it.

I Love Him

I love him very much, but if he doesn't have feelings for me and plays with my feelings I don't want to to do it! I have tried to forget him but that doesn't work. I also don't want to lose him as friend.

I have thought about his wife and children many times before we've done it, but I can not ignore my feelings.

My Heart & Head Don't Agree

My heart says do it because I love him, but my head says to forget about him, but I can't. I think about him every minute of the day. I have had a boyfriend but my thoughts are with my lover. I'm so hopelessly in love with him. I don't now what I must do so please help me.

Does he have feelings for me?

- A Girl in Love