Dear Girl in Love,

You are right to be concerned. Let me tell you what happened to my cousin.

I got a bad vibe reading this letter. The relationship that you have started with this man is dangerous. You are fifteen and he is forty nine with children and a wife. He does not love you, he is just using you for sex. And you do not love him, you just like the attention.

You Have Low Self Esteem

In the beginning of your letter you wrote that you are not a "good looking girl", which leads me to believe there are major problems with your self esteem. You also say that you don't want to lose him as a friend.

Lose him.

Friends don't manipulate you and your emotions for their own personal gain. He is not a good husband either, because he is cheating on his wife and lying to her. And how could a man who violates a child be a good father?

You must end this and get counseling as soon as possible. You have to tell someone about your situation, even if you can't name names. But you have to talk about this incident and why it happened so you can get through this without feeling like you need him or you're too lonely without him. I can't tell you what to do.

But if you don't start fixing yourself and the way you feel about yourself you will forever be in relationships in which you are the victim though you don't feel victimized. But think about it, he has all the power here. And to reclaim your own power you have to be strong.

My answers are usually more objective than this, however he is a bad bad man, and though the consequences from sounding off about your relationship may be just as dire for you as it is for him it may be worth it. You make that choice. But I need to urge you to get help and work on your own self esteem. This is going to happen again if you don't.