Dear Panel,

I am Peter. Before I say (write) anything else you should know that English is not my mother tongue. So I ask you to take it easy on me.

Who I Am

I am fish by horoscope. I am a student. I like sport. I am stubborn. I am afraid I will be hurt. I already was once. I want someone to love. I don't like to dance. I am not a jealous type of a guy. In my own opinion trust is the basic for a successful relationship. I give impression nothing can hurt me. I do not like to accept a friendship with a girl who has hurt me. It is against my rules. I do not talk about my problems, but in this case I like that girl so much that I do not want to give up so easily. And that is why I have turn to you. I am realistic person even if they say for fishes that they like to dream. I do dream but I am doing the very best to stay on the real ground. I am aware you will not be able to help me in a way I would want. I just need something to make it easy for me on decisions I will make in the future. When will you (if will you) send me a reply you have to keep in mind that she is worth to try everything.

Who She Is

Her name is Alenka. She is fish by horoscope too. She is stubborn too. She loves to dance. She likes sport. She is worthy to trust. She often does not have time for me. Or should I say she did not have time for me often. She works. She is a very good girl meaning by house cleaning, worrying about grandmother, her parents and brother. She is afraid to be hurt too. She already was hurt once.

Who We Were

We have been together for 2 months. It was perfect. She told me first that she loves me. I could not believe my ears when I heard that but it was true. She said she is sorry for not knowing me earlier. Everything was perfect.

My Stupid Mistake

Until one day she told me she is afraid to risk because she knows how it is when you risk and then at the end you are hurt badly. I got panicked and scared that she might hurt me. So I wanted to protect myself. And I did the most stupid thing in the world. I told her that everything I told her (that I love her, etc.) is not true.

That must hit her hard. She did not admit that in the first place but later on she said she was hurt by what I said. I apologized, I said how stupid I was that I was not thinking and blablabla. She forgave me but it has changed our relationship. The relationship got cold. She closed herself down. Things were not like they used to be. That has led us to some minor problems and misunderstandings.

I have proposed that we start from the beginning and she agreed. But she want us to be friends. She said a very very good friends. And then how things will work out we will get back together. I did not wanted that kind of a "beginning". But I said OK. She said that I have to act as a friend. It means no kissing on the lips, not saying things like I love you etc.

I Touched Her Leg

The other day there was some big party. I was there she was there and I came and sit next to her and I touched her legs. I always did that and she always did that to me too. She did not mind but then the next day she asked me if I touch all my female friends like that. I said no and she said that was not fair from me. I am ashamed for what I did. She said again that we are friends now.

She Still Loves Me

I do not like places where she goes. Too proud to go there. Anyway she said that since I do not want to go to places she goes we will not hear and see each other often. But she also said she still loves me. She said if she won't have me she won't have no one.

Anyway I called her all the time (don't ask about the phone bill) and she asked me if I am in a hurry, why am I in a hurry? I want to know what do you think about what I said. I want know if there are any chances for us. Or ... I do not know what. In general I would be more than grateful for any useful information you might tell me. It would really really help me.

Thank you very much in advance.

Where is this all leading? I want your personal opinion.

-- Last Hope